Monday, July 8, 2013

Breaking up with Jesus

Have you ever known people who dated for a long time and everyone knew they were heading towards marriage, but instead of getting engaged they break up? They love each other, they can picture spending the rest of their lives together, but they have a hint of doubt so they take time to see what life without one another would be like.
I feel like I recently broke up with Jesus. Odd concept, I know. Hang in there with me...
Jesus: we’ve had a relationship my whole life. My whole life. It was assumed that we would be together for the rest of my life. We seemed pretty happy. No major red flags. My family likes the guy. My friends knew him and they agreed that it was a good thing. We had weekly dates on Sunday to check in and we would usually hang out on Wednesday nights to makes sure things were progressing.
But after years (decades, actually), things got pretty complex. And serious.  And I started doubting. He also seemed a bit distant. I thought it might be a good idea for us to “take a break.” I wanted time to figure things out on my own.
It was nice for a while. Complete freedom! But something was obviously missing. Life without this guy seemed a little dark and lonely. I didn’t have my partner to talk with and encourage me. I finally decided that life was better with him than without him.
Looking back, I see that it was the classic “it’s me, not you” scenario. But it really was me, not him. He was all in. 100%. No matter what.
They say that struggles only make a relationship stronger. It’s true. It’s definitely a relationship I often take for granted. He knows me inside and out, but there is still so much that I have to learn about him. I’m getting to know him in a different way. And it’s kind of exciting!
So what does marriage to Christ look like? Your answer is about as good as mine! I’m still figuring it out. But my guess is that, similar to marriage between a husband and wife, there will be a lot to learn along the way. And it will probably be difficult. But mostly joyful and life-giving. And I would say that commitment is the foundation and a good place to start.

Wandering Heart
My favorite verse from my favorite hymn; such truth about my relationship to God...

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it
Seal it for Thy courts above.

1 comment:

  1. Love this! So honest and insightful! And did I tell you what a great writer you are! Love you!